I feel like I should approach this update in the way a Catholic approaches the confessional..."forgive me blog for I have sinned, it has been over a week since my last post," and oh what a week it has been. If things haven't been busy enough with plans to move, things to sell, papers and passports to order, to top it off my darling son decided this would be the best week ever to decide to start potty training, and whilst that is an awesome and exciting thing in itself, adding a bathroom pit-stop every 15 minutes of the day is somewhat exhausting. There have been times when I've barely cleaned and dressed him from the last trip, when he proudly announces "Mamma POTTY!"
Example #1 being that since typing the one paragraph you see above, we have made two trips to the bathroom, had one timeout for yelling (Jack was yelling, not me, although I would love to be put in timeout, if it means I can sit quietly by myself and contemplate my actions), I have been told I'm very behind on laundry by Kyle and I have poured the better part of a cup of coffee over myself...and it's not even eight o'clock in the morning.
That being said, I need this blog, I need it more than ever, I feel my sanity slipping these days and my focus waning. I haven't ridden my bike in a week now, the longest it has sat since it's arrival, in my mind I have to keep telling myself that I have not been very well and that it's probably for the best, as dizzy spells and bicycle riding don't go hand in hand, but then I also feel like maybe I wouldn't feel so bad if I did manage to prioritize myself and get a nice ride in, after-all I have never felt worse for a ride on my bike. But my health has really been on a decline in the last few months, I don't like to discuss it as it makes me feel weak, and it's far less than positive, which is not something I want my blog to be focused on.
So let me dig through this pile of stress and find the real beauty of the moment, and that is- We really are moving, we are already "moving", with each day finding us closer to our goal of an October departure. I have longed for this moment for the last 20 years, and I'm so excited that this dream is finally coming true. I'm excited for my little family to experience this adventure and pleased that I feel our prospects will be greater for it. When I think about all the things that could go wrong I remind myself that at the very least "it will be an adventure" and really that's what it's all about!